What I didn't expect....

So life is what it is and so it goes on... Now what I didn't expect was it to be so bad for so long with so many challenges. Blah!!! I don't have a ton of time my internet connection here is just so so, so forgive my crazy ramblings and what-nots...

We've been in Sandy now for just over a month. Wow an entire month. Its been good, bad, and bittersweet. The thing is you never really think about how things are really going to occur in life until they actually do. Like the fact that we live in a nice part of town, accommodations are at the right price. However there are things that are not perfect nor will they ever be, because from the outside looking in you think wow your lucky and honestly I could explain how we are not, but really who wants to hear of the truth? People don't want the truth they like the lies, the good things, they have little to no desire to hear the truth. Which is hard for me, because I like to tell it like it is. Its exhausting just trying to sugar coat things for others and takes way to much effort at the same time.

So now for no sugar what so ever..... Its been down right shitty! Ants, no clothes dryer, and the everlasting worry of when will we be asked to leave these accommodations is always on my mind. Every day I clean up little dead piss-ants off the floors because this place is totally infested in ants... YUCK!!!! They never installed a dryer hookup so we have to hang dry everything! EVERYTHING!! That doesn't suck at all. The worst part is the fact that we are invited guests so no complaining, but in the end we (the owners) can ask you to leave at any moment. Now I admit it was hard to not have Brandon working before. But not knowing when we have to leave is killing me. Maybe not so much if I didn't have kids, but really? We can't afford rent we can barely cover gas and food. Until the house is sold in Monticello we are completely screwed. Its either suffer through it or go into financial ruin. I'm not willing to destroy our credit because of uncontrolled happenings, so I guess will just suffer. The truck and camper still haven't sold and I don't blame people. We're not asking unreasonable prices, but there are so many people who are in the same financial situation as us, who lost jobs and just can't catch a break. If me and Brandon could afford the rent to own it home program we'd let someone do that, but then what happens if they back out or destroy our home? That's right we're screwed. I'm not about to let that happen. So please stop asking!!!
I guess I just figured when Brandon finally got a job that things would just instantly start working out for us, the house would sale. We'd settle into a new place and that he'd actually enjoy his job... Unfortunate those rose colored glasses were honestly shit covered glasses. I'm not saying we're not happy, because together we are its just what I didn't expect to have happen just seems to keep rolling our way and its depressing and sucks just a little so I'm telling the truth and in the end I have faith it will all work out. I know it will work out, I just didn't expect it to be so long, so hard and with so many extra challenges!