Life: Just because you have one, doesn't make it important.

I love sarcasm its my life's chicken noodle soup! Its my reason for waking up every morning and getting ready for the day. Although I try not to be to sarcastic with every person around me (I understand that its not for everyone) I feel like I should be documenting some of it and what is a better way then this blog?

Its been way to long and its time to start up again. By the way.... I am in no way talking or referencing to any other person in this blog but myself. My title may have made you go.... hmm oh boy Heather's at it again. Well yes I am in fact blogging, however I'm in no way suicidal or depressed. Its just my way of dealing with the cards that have been dealt to me. Some mornings I wake up and think I'm living, I'm doing the best I can, I'm taking care of my two boys (I'm important to them), but some days you just can't help but feel like wow is this really how life is?

My family has been through so many ups and downs over the last year and a half that I thought maybe we had finally made it through all the weird.... I was wrong. Now that doesn't mean good things haven't happened. We were able to sale our camper and truck, which was great considering they had both been for sale for well over a year. I was happy to finally be free from our over indulgences. I learned a lesson from it too.... Don't spend more than you have or make for that matter, but then again we both "had" jobs at the time so it was no big deal. I will swear by one thing though, if its not a house (I consider that an investment), its a toy so you better have the cash to pay for it then...
Our house is still for sale (anyone you know of in Monticello PLEASE send them our way). I'm not sure when it will finally sale..... However it is in fact fun to look at the house as our "vacation home" that we never get to see. Not because we are too busy, but because we are saving our resources for job interviews, rent, living expenses, pre-school, food, gas etc... Our payment for the house isn't bad, just the fact that we moved up here for a job that didn't last and rented an apartment... So now we still have lots of extra expenditures that we wouldn't "worry" about if either one of us had a job. So that brings us the full circle of life... Back to being unemployed again! Yes its frustrating and a bit distracting honestly. Its hard to function in society and act "normal" when you are so totally stressing how to pay for everything. I posted on facebook the other day that Job Hunting was like doing drugs, you are always waiting for your next fix and after so long you feel paranoid. To explain this both me and Brandon have been applying for jobs constantly. Every time you get a call back, email, or interview you get this high (excited that things may be alright) after the interview there is this waiting period where you are paranoid because you don't know what's going to happen next. Then if you get a rejection letter/email/call its the ultimate low "hitting bottom" and then you realize that you need another fix to make yourself feel better, to make your self go on. Not that I've ever done drugs or even been a drinker. I just imagine from all the shows I have time to watch now that its similar. In fact I don't actually know what drug addicts "feel" nor do I ever want to know.

So with all that in mind.......


Good bye to our sweet Ford-Truck... It was nice to have you, but no need when you don't have a job to pay for the gas that it takes to drive you!



Our wonderful camper a ton of really fun memories were made in you! Although we only owned you for a short time you were my first and at this point possibly my last.....

href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1XMosy5CaxJLP1E7A_79tPwOMN3J___0ECR8ti3zwBQikrWLOmElMPS-laxd1rjJkpjd0aLpFZPKK3BNpf-WZORYWnfawD7U4UfW_YtXV87egE2STe7UL6UCPTvCrmHkh275eku-1y9dZ/s1600/DSC_0058.JPG">

So as we push on looking for jobs and in general a direction to head I only ask that you be mindful of us in your thoughts and prayers. That one we have learned a valuable lesson in life, but also that things will become more stable so that my kids may have a good home and some security from one of us finding a good job. Thank you....